He is ONE years old!

Today is Deegan's 1st birthday! The past 2 nights I was up with him at 2:36am because he wasn't feeling good. He was either up crying or sleeping on my chest. Well last night he work up at 1am and I thought I would be able to cuddle with my birthday boy, but he fell back asleep pretty quickly. But since he woke me up and I was thinking about this potential job that I might be starting in a few weeks, so I was wide awake just laying in bed. I turned over to look at the clock at it was 2:43am! It was his birthday. So I sneaked into his room to see if I could take a few pictures with my iPhone. I didn't want to wake him since he was already up once earlier in the middle of the night. It was too dark and the pictures didn't turn out :-( But at least I got to cuddle with him just an hour before his birthday.

I started thinking about some of the newborn memories I have of Deegan...
I remember when he was so tiny that I could hold him sideways in the chair and his legs wouldn't even touch the arm rests.
I remember going to bed at night and was afraid to cover my face or ears with my blanket because I was worried I wouldn't hear him on the monitor. Now I can hear him with the doors closed!
I remember getting up in the morning with him and we would just lay in bed and play and talk. I really enjoyed those mornings of just him and I.
I remember we use to rub his cheek to see if he was asleep before we would put him down...or we would tickle his little foot.
I remember being so paranoid about cleaning his bottles and making sure my hands were always clean. My hands were super dry the first month of his life, from washing them so much!

I am so lucky that I was able to stay home with him for this past year. We talked about me going back to work when he was a newborn but that would of been when he was only 10 weeks old. I had 12 weeks off work but went on bed rest 2 weeks before my due date, so he would of been 10 weeks old in daycare.

Today he was suppose to have his birthday party at the park with his friends from the mommy group but we decided to reschedule it because he was sick and we didn't want to get anyone else sick. I am glad that we because we are flying to Orange County tomorrow and I wanted to make sure he was feeling better for the flight.